.Sunday, February 28, 2010 ' 9:44:00 PM Y
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Its weird how your
"OKAY!"
when i wrote "BLOODY HELL I JUST LOVE YOU ALOT LA OKAY." something like that.
and
"smile more(:"
when i wrote "thanks for the first smile of today"
and
" :D "
when i wrote" see you soon"
through your msn pm can cheer me up so much.
but how would i know if you're replying to my pm? HAHAHA.
heck lah,i m still very happy,cause i think you were.
50 more hours only,can la.chicken feet!
byebye,ilovehoweichyiforeveruntilthedayidie.
. ' 6:53:00 PM Y
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Sigh,my parents keep asking about you.
what am i supposed to do?every time they mention your name,my heart aches.
they asked if you were free yesterday,if not what were you doing?
oh,i wonder too.
i just came back from the library,walked there alone,came back alone.
4 hours. didnt talk nor smile.i doubt i laughed/smiled today.
oh~~that is such a melody thing to do.
i just read through your 99 reasons,can never get sick of it.
some parts of it,i just makes me happy when i read it because it reminds me of how it all used to be.
but at some points my heart sinks because whatever that is happening between us is
contradicting the things written in it already.
why did we seem so perfect before and so corroded and imperfect now?
our relationship is falling into pieces.
20) The fact that i won't live my life without you
i think you can still live your life perfectly normal without me now.
44) How i miss you in the day and dream about you at night
i don't miss me in this way anymore.
56) How we can talk for a few hours about nothing
We don't do that anymore.
72) Love you because you can make me happy more than anyone else
I dont think i m the person who makes you happy,i'm the one who brings you unhappiness.
73) You would do anything in this world to make me happy
Even if i do try,i fail to make you happy in the end.i dont seem to be able to make you laugh anymore.
75) how i cant wait to see you the next day
I think you are better off not seeing me the next day.
85) love sending you to school so that i can get to see you again
Dont think you love it anymore.
Hah,this sucks.
I dont think you like the idea of me posting these,i dont know.cant ask you either.
I just need to type these things out to make myself feel better.i'm sorry.
I need you,i really do.
Taz is sitting right behind me. well,at least it'll be with me forever.
i feel like breaking down again,even though i shouldnt.
i wish you were here with me.
53 more hours.
it seems too long for me to go through. but somehow,i ll try to manage.
I really miss you so much.if i fail this relationship,i wont get through another one.
This is my last.
. ' 2:13:00 PM Y
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58hours more till i talk to you again.
this sucks.
coming to think of how you ever changed me in terms of my character and stuff,at first,
it can be considered as changing for you.
after all these i guess to become a better person isnt just for the sake of you.
i should treat my parents well too with this character.
i m starting to learn.
now,i know, that it doesnt matter how long you spend your time with anyone.
its how you spend it and how you treasure the time spent with the person.
i m going to do so with my parents,they're not that young anymore are they?
i think i should take care of them already.besides,my dad is going through alot of stress in his work.
i think he should start teaching instead again.
maybe i can just make do with a simple lifestyle.
life isnt always about having fun,i guess i was always blinded by that thought.
.Saturday, February 27, 2010 ' 11:09:00 PM Y
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i need someone to talk to i need someone to talk to i need someone to talk to.
i want to remove my brain and dig out all the negative thoughts that are running through my mind.
the memories and words ever said just cannot stop replaying.
my heart feels so heavy, i can never pull it up.
i want to wind back time,i want to make things change in just a snap.
if only wishes could come true,just one would do.just one,please just one.
i've only been making one wish,give a chance for it to be granted.
i need you,I NEED YOU NOW.
i want time to heal all wounds and i want the two of us to be like how we used to be.
since we both want it to be recovered,it will work out.it MUST.
why is there always a downside to things?
i just feel so weak,so so weak.
i hope,we will pull through this period together.
i believe that, we can do it.
sigh.
. ' 9:56:00 PM Y
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Wine is my only companion now.
yawn,feeling so bored doing everything over and over again.
fb,blog,fb,blog.drink eat drink eat.
i think i m starting to grow fatter ):
when the adults outside are talking and laughing,for me,i just cant hear all the laughter anymore.
i find everything so gloomy and dark.
sigh,hope i can drink till i can sleep tonight.that would be a miracle.
can't sleep well these days,feel like a zombie.
74 hours before i talk to you again.
this sucks.
where are you?what are you doing?what fills your mind? i really dont know.
.Wednesday, February 24, 2010 ' 6:35:00 PM Y
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you're online,you're just a stone's throw away.
its just 27and a half more hours. what would your response be?
i dedicate to you "tonight" by FM static.
i think of you listening to this song )':
.Friday, February 19, 2010 ' 8:56:00 PM Y
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Even little minor things could provoke me now.
i dunno what has gotten into me lah,but this cool down period has like 4-5 more days to go?
it has been around 22 hours since i met you and around 20 hours since i heard your voice.
maybe its just because we didnt text or something.
I NEARLY TEXT/CALLED YOU,couldnt control LOL,but anyway i decided not to.
but i wanted to call you also because i tot i lost my phone so yeah.
but i didnt,cause someone called RUPALAVANYABALAsomethingsomething
purposely took my phone away to test how long it would have taken me to notice its missing.
i went up down up down the stairs.but i took my revenge already,she got a shock too! HAHAHA.
besides,i took around 2 hours to notice?omg -.- my phone feels dead,i wonder if there's something wrong with it,why no messages? LOL.
i guess i took so long cause i kept telling myself not to look at it hahaha.
Sigh,and i guess i owe you an apology for being so worked up over nothing and picking up quarrels.
I doubt i ve done that before,so yeah. i feel really bad for doing that to you.
i m starting to lose self control,how?
I NEED TO COOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOL down.
anyway,just now went to study with lintonglin,and i read through the remainder theorm thingy.
the one that i was daydreaming in during math class and totally regretted.
i guess instead of asking the teachers for help i ve already solved my problem.
i feel so dumb now -.- its even easier than log LOL.
HAIYO,i want my chinese paper back.2 weeks already ):
math and geo test both on the same day,periods next to each other,good luck man.
i think i m gonna fail ):
SIGH,my phone is within my reach,omg. tempt.
i shall distract myself for the good of us (:
anyway i deleted the previous post cause yeah i already explained,i m losing tolerance at everything.
maybe i got possessed by jane eyre's passionate soul LOL,lame.
i guess i ll just turn in early? ):
its only 9pm ohgod.
GO BATH.
.Monday, February 15, 2010 ' 3:29:00 PM Y
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I LOVE YOU,
HO WEI CHYI.
. ' 2:49:00 PM Y
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i had alot alot of fun on my 16th birthday. thx everyone (:
as for the list of people who wished me and the time they wished me,i think i ll just give it a miss.
cause when daisy blindfolded me i couldnt record properly ):
i bet i looked like an idiot with that hat lah!
oh ya and thanks everyone for ur presents hahaha.
aiya,lazy to elaborate,it was just,the best birthday in my whole life so far.
i wanted to take pictures of all the presents and upload but my phone seems to have a problem.
so ya cant ):
SIGH.
oh and many people whom i didnt expect to rmb my birthday rmbed (:
very glad ahahaha.
i got a new "daily" wear necklace now,guess from who huh (:
collected 238bucks of birthday money so far
and 263bucks of cny money.
which totals up to 501!
(:
today gonna go to my friend's house to play black jack and bai nian,excited (:
aiya,alot of things lah! i dunno how to list them all out now ):
i just know that on valentine's night when i watched wolfman with HWC,the person didnt ask for my IC when i bought the tickets/enter the theatre.
HAHAHA,i look freaking mature now. muahahhaahhahaha,i think.
oh and i think that everyone shouldnt watch the wolfman cause the wolf seriously looks more like a gorilla.
no kidding.
BORED,3 more hours before going out again.
this cny seems to pass so fast ):
ok byebye. post another day.
