.Sunday, February 28, 2010 ' 6:53:00 PM Y
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Sigh,my parents keep asking about you.
what am i supposed to do?every time they mention your name,my heart aches.
they asked if you were free yesterday,if not what were you doing?
oh,i wonder too.
i just came back from the library,walked there alone,came back alone.
4 hours. didnt talk nor smile.i doubt i laughed/smiled today.
oh~~that is such a melody thing to do.
i just read through your 99 reasons,can never get sick of it.
some parts of it,i just makes me happy when i read it because it reminds me of how it all used to be.
but at some points my heart sinks because whatever that is happening between us is
contradicting the things written in it already.
why did we seem so perfect before and so corroded and imperfect now?
our relationship is falling into pieces.
20) The fact that i won't live my life without you
i think you can still live your life perfectly normal without me now.
44) How i miss you in the day and dream about you at night
i don't miss me in this way anymore.
56) How we can talk for a few hours about nothing
We don't do that anymore.
72) Love you because you can make me happy more than anyone else
I dont think i m the person who makes you happy,i'm the one who brings you unhappiness.
73) You would do anything in this world to make me happy
Even if i do try,i fail to make you happy in the end.i dont seem to be able to make you laugh anymore.
75) how i cant wait to see you the next day
I think you are better off not seeing me the next day.
85) love sending you to school so that i can get to see you again
Dont think you love it anymore.
Hah,this sucks.
I dont think you like the idea of me posting these,i dont know.cant ask you either.
I just need to type these things out to make myself feel better.i'm sorry.
I need you,i really do.
Taz is sitting right behind me. well,at least it'll be with me forever.
i feel like breaking down again,even though i shouldnt.
i wish you were here with me.
53 more hours.
it seems too long for me to go through. but somehow,i ll try to manage.
I really miss you so much.if i fail this relationship,i wont get through another one.
This is my last.
